Monday, June 8, 2009

Insecurities and goings-on

Can I tell you something?

After writing that last post, I had a little bit of writer's regret.

As a writer, I have a constant struggle between wanting to be open and honest about my life and my feelings, and being really really afraid of either offending or being rejected by my reader.

So as a BLOG writer, that feeling is intensified since my audience is wider than it ever was as a paper-writer (a whole 40 people, thankyouverymuch). And since the only way I have to measure my approval is by comments (clears throat loudly)... the low comment rate on that post had me thinking Oh, I've really lost them now.

And then yesterday Mike and I were approached separately about that post (Mike, of course, having no idea what the person was talking about), and then I got another couple of comments. So I guess it wasn't a total failure in that it got people thinking. I think that's a good result.

All this is to say: I'm super duper insecure. And I may offend you, but hey, I guess that's the risk I'm willing to take.

In the "goings-on" department:

Mike and I had a good date night, though we were clearly rusty at it. We just kinda drove to Harvard Square and bumbled around for a few hours, though we did get fed by fairly good food, which was certainly one of the goals. It's very different having a date with a time limit. I'm sure most of you know that by now.

Also on Friday, my dear dear friend MK FINALLY had her baby!! She was 12 days late, and she is absolutely beautiful! She kind of looks like an Eskimo baby. Which is fitting, I guess.

So. Mike and I had 4 friends at the hospital last week, and sadly, MK was the only one there for a happy reason. We've got a close friend who was in a terrible accident and is now in ICU, and I just can't stop thinking about it. We are aching for him and his little family right now. Their daughter just turned 1. I can't even begin to imagine.

Could you maybe say a little prayer for him? Thanks.

4 comments:

Erin said...

Hey! I feel the same way about posts sometimes. And on the other side of things, I feel that way about comments, too. If I comment too much I'm all, "Oh my gosh, they're gonna think I'm a stalker." Why are we ridiculous? We do this for the reading and the conversation. I guess even online, we're still people, still wanting validation. I really enjoyed that post, and I can't agree with it more. Peace and love in the home start at the top down. I like to think that my relationship is an investment in Camper's future marriage, if my husband and I are each other's first priority, then maybe Camper will learn how to love someone as much I as I love John.

Timp said...

Great. I just wrote a comment on your previous post before I had a chance to read this one. Now you're going to think I commented just because you asked, no begged for it. I'm tempted to remove the comment. I don't want you to get the wrong idea. I'm glad I'm not insecure.

Kam said...

I didn't comment, did I? And yet, I MEANT to, honest. In fact, I read your last post, then reread, then even read it OUT LOUD to Brian. (rare, I'm telling you.) It was good. Got me thinking I'd like a few more date nights, romantic moments, etc. What I was going to comment is that my parents are in their 60s and still TOTALLY in love with each other in a very cute, admirable way. He still tells her how beautiful she is, and she still fixes up just before he gets home from work; they even still hold hands at church, smooch in the kitchen, etc. I think they'd both say it's the little things that they keep doing for each other that make it work. (Aside, they also still argue and bicker as usual -- not to make them sound so perfect and lovey-dovey.) Anyway, it's always nice to think about what makes the marriage work, and how to make it work best for everybody. So, thanks for the "thinker" post!

Harris Family said...

I thought you were spot on in this post!! I have read so many books/articles that resonate the "best gift" is showing your children that you love your spouse! SO so so important!!!